Clouds of injustice, I ask you to suck me in.
Because I am feeling brutally cheated.
I ask all of you to take my blissful pain away.
If you tell me what's right, I will listen.
If you tell me what's wrong, I will learn.
Tell me where to go, turn around and I will be there.
When you tell me to leave, I am gone.
The rustling sound of trees wont keep me away.
All I want is for you to take me away.
Your knowledge of life keeps me coming and coming back.
You will always be there for me.
Even when I am sometimes not.
I wish you were here in the physical,
Not just in the astral.
You give me all I want.
All I want and all I need.
When I dream, it is of you.
Only of you.
Your energy is more than the core
Of the hot, blazing sun.
When I fall, I reach for you.
When I cry, I yearn for you.
Please give my life back to me.
Please help me.
I am drowning in thoughts over you.
You are all I think about.
You are all I want.
You have always been there,
Funny how I just noticed.
Even though I keep telling myself
Not to feel the way I do.
My feelings overtake my mind
And I can't forget.
I hate you sometimes
For what you are putting me through.
Maybe I am scared?
But forgive me for not wanting
My heart stomped on.
There's nothing I can do.
There's nothing I can say.
All I can do is wait for you.
I hate waiting for you,
But its all I can do.
I will always be waiting.
So my hopes are that
You will be coming around soon.
This is killing me.
This is... my tearing me apart
Waiting for you.......
Yesterday I saw you walking in the street.
You saw me, oh geez, is that a kiss?
Boy, what have I missed?
Well guess what?
I can't feel you anymore.
I guess you thought
I would never get you out of my mind.
Well you shouldn't have to guess
That it's been a long time.
You did me wrong,
Why did it take me so long?
I kept forgiving you over and over.
You thought you could have me
Forever more, but guess what?
I can't feel you anymore.
What was that?
You want me back?
Well it's too late for that.
Because I can't feel you anymore.
When you got off the phone with me,
Your voice sounded so cold.
I opened my heart to you,
And you took it as a joke.
I wonder if you heard
My wounded heart cracked as you said good bye?
If only I could stop thinking of you.
How can you sit there and take me for granted?
I am giving you all of me,
And for nothing but heartache in return.
I thought you were the one.
Maybe what I wanted so badly,
Made me vulnerable to feel for you.
I hope you hear me when
I sing your name in my sleep.
Remember when you are old and alone.
Remember all of this love you gave up....
Me too I will be all alone!
In this dark and senseless world,
What is my calling ?
What is the meaning of this
deep and endless me ?
If I were to fall like a fallen angel,
would anybody notice?
If I should cry out terrifying screams of pain,
would anybody listen?
If I could tear open my chest
and show them my bleeding heart, I would.
Would they listen then?
Or just call me crazy?
If I peeled off this face
and showed them the real me, would they run?
You say you love me,
but you are only in love with the myth,
not the real me.
What should I be?
Why am I here?
To tell you my feelings?
That is why I ask, what is my calling?
Edges blurring
Rounded and easy
in a sphere of soft light
Soft skin, soft lips
touching easy and intimate
Floating softly
head over heels
round and round
never touching ground
Not alone
love
Never alone
love
With my love
Sinking into unconsciousness
Ever floating
Between life and death
love and hate
hot and cold
Ever floating
Surreal
Breathing
In and out
Into the wind
Againandagain
andagain.
Again and again
Soul floating over the violin strings
Chaffed and bleeding
Rubbed raw by you.
Hurt and unhealing
Words, looks, and deed.
Soul black with a human craving
Inside my head I hear your voice
Everything is about you
Your laugh
I cannot escape
Questioning your existence
Everything
Why and why not
completely valid
completely relevant
Your eyes
Your hands
I can still feel...
Where does your extravagant garden grow?
They say you are out there,
Somewhere waiting for me.
I wonder if your eyes are green?
Or are they blue like the deep blue sea?
They say you know me, like I know myself.
Where are you?
Where are you hiding when I need you the most?
I feel the shadows cast darkness over me.
I feel the sun warm my soul,
as the moon lights my way.
I take it in as if it's the last breath of air.
The darkness overwhelms my spirit,
although darkness does not fear me,
it awakens me unto the world.
I feel the wind swirl around my body,
as if it's taking my life from me
and putting in a new one.
I hear the sounds of the earth
playing with my mind
their whispers still crying to me in the night.
I feel someone is behind me watching me
although i know no one is there.
I feel the heat rises up from the ground
and the ice comes down from the heavens.
I think to myself this could be heaven
or this could be hell.
The end of time as we know it is coming
for i can feel it as the world opens up
and shows me eternity.
Eternity is nothing to fear
for all eternity is what you make it to be.
Life, this world, people,
so undescribable................
My longing for your touch grew.
I tried to hide my lust.
But unmistakably I felt that I must trust.
But before I even spoke a word,
You had acted on my thoughts.
You proceeded to explain your past.
While visions of our future ran in my mind.
It made me wonder if we would last.
You began to slowly caress me.
But I was seeing in a different view.
So I felt we should take it slow.
And to my astonishment you felt the same.
My heart was crying because
I couldn't bring my face to.
I suddenly realized you were
The person I had been dreaming of.
When you surprisingly just wanted to hold me.
You fell asleep, as I kept thinking endless thoughts.
We woke up in the same mood.
I felt beautiful in everything I did around you.
You left and made me curious if you would remember.
Regardless of what you felt, for one night,
please remember you have changed my life.
and I turned back to stare
at the heap of clothes and sagging flesh
that shook and quivered with each gust of wind.
The slight shivers, barely visible from under the once
delphinium blue coat now turned a sad gray,
were the only sign that life still inhabited the body.
He, she, it...was dying.
I could then all at once sense
the pityfull desolation of something small
and vulnerable being absorbed into
something massive and indifferent.
I spoke but not to be heard over the sudden
movement in the trees that woke me from my trance.
Outside the rain seemed to have stopped,
a drained coffee cup at my elbow
reminded me of where I was and
as the memories of the night came flooding back,
I peered out to where the mist began...
Just because of the way I look.
But could there be another side?
Could I have a heart of gold?
If I was to pry open your chest,
It would be all black from hatred.
And you still say the same.
But what if I were to become America's idol?
Would you say you knew me then ?
Or would you lie and say you were my friend?
Your hatred filled with jealousy oozing out of the middle world.
You know me...
You say you know but you don't.
But I guess you never knew I blossomed with innocence?
You say I am stupid.
But stupid is as stupid does.
I guess you know all too well.
Touch me, cut me, I bleed just like you.
But some bleed through their teeth.
Through their words.
Until one day the hate runs back,
And you are no longer human.
I feel like this will never end.
But just when I start to realize.
I fall in love with you again.
And I let my feelings pretend.
That you are by my side again,
that we will never end,
that when you are by my side again,
I won't have to pretend.
Even though you say you are far from here,
I feel your daily presence is near
Just when I try to forget.
My feelings for you never quit.
Vodka, with a drop of blood.
Take away the sting of life.
One more time, before the
Designated driver comes.
Once again.
Just one small guzzle,
Of my One last luxury.
So grateful for my sin.
Give me my sweet elixir.
To burn his name from my throat.
To erase it forcefully from my
vocal chords.
And just one more.
The Driver is late.
He won't mind waiting.
Sometimes, he likes a glass for himself...
SO...I will drink to....ETERNITY....
That I love you so dear.
And then you would stop.
Then you would turn back the clock.
And see that you love me.
If only you could see,
what you are doing to me,
then maybe you would see
that you are killing me.
If you were really here,
I could hold you so near.
And then maybe you would
see how much you are hurting me.
You are all I need.
Burst of fire from trees lit by the sun.
Lined by the flame,
Kissed by the sun.
City lights.
A travers d'autres regards
Et si l'on s'etait trouves
Et qu'il ne soit pas trop tard
Pour le temps qu'il me reste a vivre
Stopperais-tu ta vie ivre
Pour pouvoir vivre avec moi
Sur ton ile aux Mimosas.
Courant dans la prairie
Et comme deux oiseaux
Volant vers l'infini
Et comme deux ruisseaux
Cherchant le meme lit
Nous irions dans le temps
Droits comme des roseaux
Quand sous le poids des ans
Nous courberions le dos
CE serait pour mieux boire
Ensemble a la meme eau....
De soir en soir, de bar en bar,
Imagine que tu m'aies trouve'
Et qu'il ne soit pas trop tard
Pour le temps qu'il me reste a vivre
J'amarrerais mon piano ivre
Pour pouvoir vivre avec toi
Sur ton ile aux Mimosas.
Des tours de Cathedrales
Et nous serions plus pres
Du ciel et des etoiles
Nous aurions le secret
Des Aurores Boreales...
Il y a si peu de temps
Entre vivre et mourir,
Qu'il faudrait bien pourtant
S'arreter de courir
Et prendre un peu le temps
De voir les fleurs s'ouvrir
De voir nos coeurs s'epanouir...
A travers d'autres regards
Et si l'on s'etait trouves
Et qu'il ne soit pas trop tard
Le temps qu'il nous reste a vivre
Amarrons notre bateau ivre
Et nous vivrons toi et moi
Sur ton ile aux MIMOSAS.
Et si l'on s'etait trouve'
Le temps...Le temps,
Le temps qu'il nous reste
Vivons, Vivons...
Sur ton ile aux MIMOSAS.....
Everything is relevant
Where the boundaries are blurred
And reality a little too sharp Like a pin prick
An echo, bouncing off the walls of my soul
Like a rubber ball
Without a target...
